Dealing with partner suffering from mental illness that leads alcohol craving has tremendous effect in a relationship. But managing all the negativity and good things in life is quite tough. Still, if you strong faith in good things that exist in this cruel world, you can manage to close your eyes and say a prayer.
Alcoholism, or alcohol dependence, is a disease that causes craving – a strong need to drink. True as they stated with alcohol abuse, you are not physically dependent, but you still have a serious problem. The drinking may cause problems at home, work, or school. It may cause you to put yourself in dangerous situations, or lead to legal or social problems. This is not only a study conducted by dedicated researchers but a serious manifestation of real life scenario.
Mayo Clinic staff stated that if your pattern of drinking results in repeated significant distress and problems functioning in your daily life, you likely have alcohol use disorder. Honestly, this is the truth about my husband. Good things about him, he never did it in a daily basis tolerating himself to crave an alcohol but along the way, every time he feels disappointed, hurt, rejections and even feeling blissful, he forgot to take control of his alcohol tolerance. Ended up usually, leaving our door open in the middle of the night after he sneaks out to find someone to talk to and satisfy his time in having some conversation about life. While obviously, leaving me alone in my deep sleep.
This make me think about mental illness why people crave alcohol. Linda Foster stated that mental illnesses can increase the risk for alcoholism or drug abuse, sometimes because of self-medicating. On the other hand, alcoholism can lead to significant anxiety and depression that may appear indistinguishable from a mental illness. Finally, one disorder can be worse than the other.
So there maybe times that I also suffer anxiety. I keep a lot to myself, jotting down my emotions through this personal blog and giving myself a time to reflect where did I go wrong? Sometimes, I feel like I am not good enough to manage his depression and also anxiety worrying things about his family and our future. This is not just a simple issue in every relationship but an awareness to everyone reading my blog that in every relationship, there should be the one who still stand and keep fighting mental illness. Even to the point of keeping it alone. But I am not yet alone, sure you are reading this post and certainly you feel me.
I want to end this post with one verse that I love from the bible.